Very very very pissed off.

1. 1st grade turns out to be a SUCKIEST one.
2. Friday have to go school when I have NO lessons. Better make sure I'm not the only one doing this.
3. Totally no motivation to carry on going school for lesson with all tight timings together.

Friend says that I'm thinking too competitively. Everything have to be sure that I can make it if not I won't do it. Maybe I think I am actually competing with myself. How can I be competing with others when others do not know? It is all my stupid self. I want to make myself cruel. I want people to hate me. Just hate me all you can. Because you don't play any single shit in my world. All I need is Baby, Liah and my Family. Friends are NEVER always be there. I believed and will NEVER make more friends.

Making myself tired everyday and hope that I'm able to stop thinking. Forcing myself to do something which I am always weak at makes me want to give up. Always the same comment, "Hope to hear more from you in 3rd meeting!!!!!!!!" I'm just weak in making questions and sharing my ideas with the class la. For the whole F-ing 2 years, this sentence never leave my Individual comment. Since it doesn't want to leave that column, I shall not put in more effort to make that stupid sentence out of my comment.

School's SUCK!